He don't know anything about her....

This weekend has been a very odd reckoning time for my brain.

Last week was so great with hosting Christmas, and seeing Amanda, and having my place spotless, and just the general merriment of everything since it finally felt like Christmas-time again.

I don't know why but for the past few years Christmas hasn't brought about the same euphoria that it did as a child.... call it disillusionment, call it maturity, call it what you will but I am not a fan. I am sure that the weather in this great gray state probably has something to do with it as, with the exception of the blizzard two weeks ago, we don't get snow anymore. Sure, we get a dusting, but it doesn't count if one can still see the tops of the blades of grass through the snow. At least when I was younger we had enough snow to make it worthwhile to play in at least a few times a winter (not to mention at least had some snow days each school year). I am sure that this has contributed greatly to my general malaise towards Christmas over the past few years, but this year that was thankfully changed. I am sure that some of that has to do with volunteering to host family Christmas, but who can say for sure. :)

Now that I have finally figured out how to get in the holiday spirit again, December was a great month. Unfortunately in the last couple of days it has all gone to hell in a hand basket. Hard to say how or why, but everything sort of went kaplooey! I just want to go to bed and wake up and have everything fall back into it's rightful place. Tomorrow is New Years Eve and I'm not looking forward to that. I am (at least presently) not looking forward to my birthday party next weekend. Ah, give that one another day or so and I'll be as good as new. Actually, it'll be that way for it all.

Thank goodness I'm the chirpy optimist. It means I can get past all of these maladies with no ill harm done. Actually, even though typing this out has no helpful effects towards all the shit that's gone on today, I still feel better about it now.

Thank you all for reading. I hope to see many of you next Saturday so you can all be surprised by whatever color my hair desired to be fort hat night. :)