it's my life, and it's now or never....

For quite a while, I have been quite bummed about how things turned out with Lumpy. I had contemplated contacting him on several occasions. I picked up the phone to call him at least three times that I can recount vividly. I started however many emails. You get the picture. I finally realized, though, that it was his decision. If he wants to sever all contact, that's fine. I will abide by his wishes no matter how many times I just want to hash something out with him. I am not being sardonic in the least, but I truly hope he has found it in himself to be happy.