...a whole new way of looking at things....

Well it seems as though I have gotten over my issues of yesterday. Whatever happens, happens and there's no use sweating the small stuff, not matter how much my brain seems to want to.

Instead, I need to focus on the big picture and how the end is worth the means. Not everything goes the way you want it to and you can either grin and bear it or let it get to you... due to in insurgence of hormones, I let it get to me, but after sleeping last night I am more at ease with life. Mind you, I am not wearing an ounce of black today, save the shoes that I seem to wear everything, so feel free to infer from that what you will. :)

The month of January has been full of ups and downs, which I suppose all of life is, but this month especially. I found out last week that one of our patients, the most beautiful person you could ever imagine meeting in your whole life, is really not doing well. She has been on various study drugs since I started working here, which if you know anything about study drugs, they aren't approved and they are kind of a last ditch effort to see if they help. well, they hadn't really helped her and she has not been coming in for a while now. She met this guy and they are perfect for each other to the nth degree. They had talked of getting married, but were debating due to the lack of coverage that his insurance would provide for her due to existing circumstances. Well, I guess they finally decided to go through with it and she was married last month. The had to have her fairly doped up for the ceremony so she wasn't in pain. The day went off without a hitch and there wasn't a dry eye in the place. They went on a cruise for their honeymoon and she did great. Unfortunately, when they came home she took a turn for the worse and was put in hospice. To know how much Aaron loves her knowing that he probably wouldn't have much time with her is just so amazing to me. She is the sweetest, most caring person I have ever met in my life and hope that I have even a fraction of the compassion that she does. I know that God has a master plan, but with someone like her, it's hard not to wonder Why?

Isn't love just an amazing thing? :)