It's not your choice, I have a voice, I guess you just don't hear me...

...My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me?
So I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelry.
Whichever you prefer....

This song has just been stuck in my head all day. I am not sure exactly what the point of the song is, but from what I listen to of it, it tends to fit my mood lately. I have been reading a lot of Jack Lessenberry today, just because. I have also gotten a lot of writing and drawing done these past few days, and my kitchen was spotless... until I went to work and left the kitchen in Kel's hands...

I think I have finally come to terms with the manic highs and lows these past few weeks have brought about. It doesn't make it any easier, just that I am ok with it now. I know it is all necessary and was bound to happen, but it all still sucks.

The other thing that has been getting to me lately is knowing how down Rob is lately. We are fast approaching his 30th birthday which is really hard on him, for quite a few reasons. I just wish that there was something, anything, that I could do.

On the plus side, lots of my family seems interested in at least checking out the family website, although few have posted anything so far... maybe they will soon catch on that we are trying to keep better in touch!

Back to my Evening with Kevin Smith: Evening Harder so enjoy your evening!